Hey man! That's awesome that you feel that way! But how does she feel about you? Have you tried dating a lot of girls and then tried going for her? If not then I can see why she is not being responsive to you and why it's such an uphill battle. Think about it, do you think you have more of a chance with a girl where you're at right now, or do you think you can really charm the pants off her (figuratively and sometimes quite literally!) once you've really come into your own as a badass. Make sure to really apply this stuff and allow to help you bring other attractive women into your life, once you become a man with options you will really be able to convey yourself to the person you were head in heels over and be able to relate to her without putting her on a pedestal.